I clearly remember the last New Year’s Day. It was right before I entered KMLA. I was excited and worried about that. How will be my roommates? What should I do if I have a conflict with them? And…what should I do to manage my sleep? So many questions not answered. It never ended, and I was little excited, but somewhat afraid of that uncertainty. And trying to get rid of that weird, new feelings, I just tried to enjoy the holiday; sleeping a lot, eating Ttuk-guk(떡국) and fried-rice cake a lot, doing anything that will apart me from those questions.
It worked for some period, but it lasted until my cousin came. He didn’t come to Grandpa’s house often, for no reason (it seemed) he came at that time.
It would be better to explain about that cousin. He is 33 years old-quite old as my cousin- and he works as a speech therapist. He is the one who nick-named me as a ‘scotch candy’ insisting that my face looks like that candy. (And everybody agrees with that. Geez!) He barely talks about his patients but he usually talks about his favorite idol Girl’s Generation and other feminine celebrities who are so-called ‘glamour’. (When I sighed about my chubby body, he recommended me not to go on a diet in high school as it makes my upper body poor.) Whenever I met him, he always talks about my ‘baby-era’; how he contributed to my hygiene status- he said he cleaned up my dung. After talking about that, he always asks me about my love life which I have nothing much to say. In brief, he is just like a boy.
And when I first saw him at that holiday, I could draw up the serial events that would happen. Nothing much different from my expectation, he talked about my life nowadays, and asked and said about this and that. Is it true that KMLA students only use English? You can make a boyfriend in there, can’t you? Questions in a row. Exhausted.
Then, another cousin (the younger sister of this cousin) gave me some advice about the life in dorm-school. She advised me to ‘keep my pace’ and ‘not to be easy person’. However, when she said not to be an easy person, that cousin said that being an easy person is not that bad. (He explained) It will make a surprise attack in grades later. Wow…tempting I guess? I was very entertained.
However that excited mind disappeared when I tried to practice Hae-gum(해금). As I was planning to apply to Minjok Orchestra, I practiced some Min-yo(민요) and some songs. Almost every family members did a lot of compliments about it, except him. When I made some off-pitch, he laughed a little bit at it. Being embarrassed about that, my face stiffened. I couldn’t smile or turn it as a joke at that time. Noticing that I was embarrassed, he probated that there might be some people like him so that I better think of how to respond to them. However, at that time, I couldn’t hear all that probation, just ignoring his comments.
My unpleasant feeling toward him didn’t melt until I left Grandpa’s house. I didn’t want to talk with him at that time, and after all, I forgot about that happening. We got over it eventually. He and I are constantly doing some calls and text-messages for some time. Well, now, I know that I was too sensitive about that. And I thought that all of his words were not that stupid at all. Although I am not sure whether being an easy person is good or not, but still, his mischievous words and actions had something to learn. I learned to be confident, quite forgiving to others. It gave me a lot of help in living KMLA life.
Thanks, I’ll bring you some bromide papers of Girl’s generation.-An autobiography that I wrote in Mz.Choi's class
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